I'm not quite sure if this is the best area to make a thread like this, but I"m looking for some advice and pep talk.
As some of you might remember from my introduction last month - i was heavy on the alcohol and heavy on the smoking. I have however commited to straight edge and im heading on my 6th month soon (might sound meager but im highly commited and true to this philosophy).
However last night I attended a party where all my friends were. They all drank, smoked their pot, had their sex, ect. There wasn't an ounce of peer preasure since they know if they temp me they'll end up face down on the floor - but an incident occured with one of my ladyfriends that crushed me. I became angered and attemped to start a fight which landed me with an other friend insulting and humiliating me infront of me entire entourage.
I must admit - i was very close to breaking down - i left the party for a short time and was so depressed and discouraged that i attempted to drown my sorrow with alcohol and smokes. Gladly, a true friend (not sXe but he supports me more then anyone) was there to prevent me before the poissoning was able to reach me.
Afterwards i was even more ashamed at the fact that i was too weak to resist such a blow, which made me feel even worse.
Can anyone give me advice on things I should do to prevent somrthing like this from happening again? or things that might get my smile back up so that i can get back to enjoying my night?
It would be apreciated - but please dont critisize me too harshly.
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